Wednesday, January 23, 2013

10 years

Ten years is a lifetime.

In 10 years, 13 year olds finish middle school and start high school.

They learn how to drive and get their license.

They graduate.

They go the army or sherut leumi.

They travel around the world before starting university.

They go to university.

They graduate. 

They fall in love, possibly more than once.

Maybe their hearts get broken.

They meet "the one."

They get married.

They start a family.

Their life moves forward...

Ten years is the blink of an eye.

It is seconds and minutes and hours of yearning.

It is hoping, always, that one morning, you will wake up and discover it's just a bad dream.

It is looking at a group of teenagers, then young adults, and expecting to see her there. 

It is always a shock that she is not. 

It is countless meals and holidays and family gatherings that always she is missing.

It is wondering all the time what she would look like now, what she would be doing, where life would have taken her. 

It is an emptiness that never goes away.

It is life, it is reality, it is something you never get used to.



Anonymous said...

So beautiful. I share your pain, but can't imagine the magnitude of it. Hugs. CK

Baila said...

All week I'm thinking of Liam, and of you. I'm sorry I wasn't here ten years ago and didn't get to know her, even a little. You keep her memory alive so beautifully. Sending you lots of love, from not-so-far-away.

Unknown said...

Your thoughts are beautiful as always. Your daughter was blessed to have you, Arthur and Maor. I can't imagine what you go through every day,every week,every year but you do it with grace and dignity. My heart is with you all today and everyday.